Wednesday, September 25, 2013


As I was reading for a class the other day, I came across this little beauty of a passage  I just thought this too lovely not to share:

"Gugemar saluted the lady, and the dame returned the knight his courtesy, but their hearts were too fearful for speech. The knight dared ask nothing of his lady, for reason that he was a stranger in a strange land, and was adread to show her his love. But—as says the proverb—he who will not tell of his sore, may not hope for balm to his hurt. Love is a privy wound within the heart, and none knoweth of that bitterness but the heart alone. Love is an evil which may last for a whole life long, because of man and his constant heart. Many there be who make of Love a gibe and a jest, and with specious words defame him by boastful tales. But theirs is not love. Rather it is folly and lightness, and the tune of a merry song. But let him who has found a constant lover prize her above rubies, and serve her with loyal service, being altogether at her will. Gugemar loved in this fashion, and therefore Love came swiftly to his aid. Love put words in his mouth, and courage in his heart, so that his hope might be made plain."

-Guigemar, Marie de France

Monday, September 23, 2013

i made a...

baby quilt! 
there was a tutorial on see kate sew for this
beautiful ombre quilt for a little girl, so I decided to boy the
colors up a little (even though a boy could totally have a pink quilt,
and I was so in love with the colors on the one kate made that I had to think long
and hard) and make this one for the little babes. it is the first 
quilt that I have ever began from the very beginning; the very 
first that I went out to choose the fabrics and then cut and 
pieced and hemmed and edged and, well, really quilted. 

now, for you fantastic quilters out there, please don't let this make your
eyes bleed. I know that I made mistakes and didn't line up everything perfectly,
  but I am just so pleased that I even completed this project and that
it looks as nice as it does. it 
gives me hope for a sewing future. 

and, it just makes me even more excited for what's going to be
snugly wrapped up in it in a few months. :} 

Saturday, September 21, 2013

I just realized that...

even if I really wanted to, I couldn't go on a roller coaster or take a really 
long dip in the jacuzzi or probably do the shavasana yoga pose 
without cutting off, you know, major blood circulation

BUT, I can get away with eating my entire portion at macaroni grill and
then just chalk up my pasta-induced expanding waistline to this growing lad.

happy 6 months, baby!

Monday, September 16, 2013

but seriously, what am I still doing here at school?

was the question I {more or less jokingly} asked phil in a message that I sent 
from my office computer on campus today after I picked up this semi-important paper thing in the mail: 
my college diploma. 

for reals. me = college graduate. it only took 5 years of school + about 2 years off for a mission + 3 changes in my major + 31 roommates + 7 jobs + 8 moves + 1 marriage + 1 halfway grown child to get to this point
but, voilĂ ! 

^^ and, magna cum laude?? I have no idea how that happened

^^ yeah, and you'll have to excuse that slightly wild/
crazy-b/c- i've-been-on-campus-all-day look I'm sporting here.

Saturday, September 7, 2013

feisty baby and a freak rainstorm

twenty-six weeks, people. this means that 
the third trimester is approaching. gah!
 ^^ the little one growing inside is feisty these days! I feel as though my insides are rolling around when he decides to try his hand at backflips. and, I knows he's still so little, but he has some strong leg muscles. the other night, phil thought it would be cool to provoke him a little by poking around my belly. the babes responded with a firm kick back every time! it was so funny and cute, and of course I was impressed by his quick response to stimuli. but, hmm, it was maybe not so cute when he couldn't stop kicking around for another hour or so and this little momma just wanted to sleep.

okay, but speaking of tenderness and cuteness and ooey gooey feelings, I think my insides
melt a little of their own volition every time I see something that is not in its adult form. anything baby sized or baby looking is sure to send me beyond an emotional edge.
ex 1: baby birds in the rec center parking lot last night. i'm sure they weren't babies, but they were so minuscule and just hopping all over the place and pecking so adorably at whatever remnants of food were in the parking lot. ahh, I kind of gushed over them (not literally, thank goodness). phil was amused and a little concerned, as you can imagine. 
ex 2: watching a clip earlier today about a newborn baby and then one about a baby seal. babies!! usually, I am alone in those moments so no one has to witness the blubbering.

also, a word to the wise: do not ever watch, in whatever stage of life you are in (and especially if that stage is seeped in hormonal fluctuations), those "soldier comes home and surprises his wife/child/dog" videos. you will be doomed to a entire roll of toilet paper.

^^ oh, and did you know that a small hurricane hit utah today? yeah, it was pretty crazy. and awesome. and, okay, am I the only person who, as soon as it starts raining, thinks frantically to themselves, "did I leave anything outside?????"

Monday, September 2, 2013

over the weekend

school starts tomorrow. can you say "mixed feelings?" all over the place. i may or may not have cried a little last night for the stress of it all. felt like some sort of anticipation anxiety brewing in my soul. and it was also late. this chica is a little irrational after ten pm. but, today? apathy. and, tomorrow? elation? we'll see. it doesn't matter that this will be the 20th (!) time i've done this whole first day thing; it's always the same nervous setting out my clothes the night before, prepping my backpack, making a sack lunch, waking up extra early (even though my first class isn't until midday), feeling completely bright-eyed for the new year process. 

so, we kinda needed a weekend like this past once to give a final hurrah to summer. we dined at a french professor's home on friday night with the other french student instructors this upcoming year. in true french style, the dinner table was still occupied for an hour or so after we ate. there is something beautiful about prolonged dinner table conversation. 

saturday night, we went to laughin' night at the storytelling festival with that beautiful couple up there (mindy and paul). we particularly enjoyed the southern drawls, the hokey songs, and the exaggerated details that make ordinary stories somehow, a sweet southern accent makes comical stories even more hysterical. my favorite moment of the night was by a storyteller talking about the town where he grew up in NC. he explained how his family made up the town's population and that his was no family tree, but a growing family wreath.

oh, and did you know that phil and I are moving? small detail. nbd. we're in the slow process of it right now - moving things over to the garage of this bigger place while the inside is renovated to a better state. i mean, we really loved the original light blue and sunset orange carpet inside and all the permanent stains on it from decades ago, but not really. and our one-room apartment just wasn't going to cut it with this little babe's entrance into the world come december. we just thought it slightly unwise for him to sleep in a compact laundry basket or inside one of our dresser drawers, you know?. but, he wouldn't have been the wiser, right? well, baby is getting an upgrade and so are we. i'll post more pictures of our new place once we move in there for real and beginning the nesting period. that will be another semester "adventure" to share.