Tuesday, May 17, 2011

have your cake and eat it too, gospel-style

this morning, I reflected.

oh yes, it happens every now and again, surprisingly. the little reflection rabbit leaps upon my head and sends my thoughts to distant pasts and places, sometimes fictional ones and sometimes literal ones. he's like the cheshire cat, this reflection rabbit - just with less questioning. 

I digress.

this morning's reflection took me to the distant past and I was thinking on how certain fork-in-the-road-this-is-kinda-a-big-deal choices have lead me to my current, happy state. I was reading some old journal entries and posts, meditating on the idea of perspective and how when we make difficult choices of considerable consequence we have to have a whole heap of trust that what we are doing is= what is right (even if it isn't the easiest path to choose at the time). remember when all I could think about was a study abroad in paris? remember how difficult it was for me to then switch gears when I realized, at that time, that I was really supposed to serve a mission? I felt like I was tossing my dream neatly off into obscurity. 

I must have forgotten about the principle of sacrifice.

to sacrifice is to give up something valuable or precious, often with the intent of accomplishing a greater purpose or goal. sacrifice has always been a part of the gospel of Jesus Christ.

I remember it now. over and over I am reminded of this principle and the blessings that have come from living it. when you sacrifice something to the Lord, such as time, your talents and abilities, and anything else that He has given to you, your sacrifice becomes, in fact, a way for the Lord to bless you in the future, whether that be greater talent, help, edifying experiences, etc. I choose to "sacrifice" what I felt at the time was my dream in exchange for an experience (my mission). yet that experience was so indescribably multi-faceted, edifying, teaching, and the mold for who I have become today that I cannot honestly say now that it was any sort of sacrifice. It has only given me more.

if I had known then what I know now then it would have been a natural, desired choice. but, of course, I wasn't supposed to know then; I was supposed to trust.

now that "sacrifice" has come full circle:

I've been to paris 
and I live in france.

isn't that what I wanted from the beginning? even if it hadn't been in the cards of destiny for me to come here, I still would have been thankful that I trusted and gave up my momentary desires for an eternal richness. nonetheless, seeing that I am here after all this time, after having willingly put this aside until now (the right time), makes me sure that "all things work together for the good of those who love God."

and, it makes me sure that
timing is everything.

1 comment:

  1. Thank you for the beautiful reminder, Laurel. At present, I cannot see past sacrifice. I needed to remember there will be blessings too. And in the end, I'm certain I will look back on this "sacrifice" and realize all along the Lord was blessing me in the midst of such trial.