Friday, October 31, 2008

it's been raining

- Rain Dance –

A folk dance troupe
Is Schuhplattering
On the shingles of my roof.

Their watery feet
Clap down in rhythm
To the gusts
Of the brass band wind.

The rolling beats from the old bass drum
Played by the shakily enthusiastic hands of a wizened man
Flash out in sporadic punctuations.
Each vibrating gesture
Livens the listeners anew.

They’ve been at it
All night -
Merrily polkaing in intricate circles
Sporting those green felt hats
With funny yellow feathers on the side,
Embroidered skirts,
And rosy cheeks.

Each dancer
Carries autumn tides
And dashes out
Every quixotic thought of summer
With each saturated step
And jump.

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

on joy

i was thinking about something today biking home from school. the wind was blowing especially hard and the autumn leaves on all the trees were literally raining from the sky! it was one of those small moments that confirms in my being that life is overwhelming beautiful, and consistently so in the most petite of ways; in vermilion leaves dropping from a branch.

i think that lately i have been so impatient for what the impendingly lovely future holds that i have lost a bit of my grasp on the loveliness that surrounds me daily in this Utahan home of mine. but today, thankfully, i came back to myself. don't get me wrong, the next few years of life are going to be ones that i hold dear forever, they will indeed, but right now, this very moment as the smirking moon is beginning to rise over the mountains outside my window, i am at peace; oh, i am happy.

i firmly believe that in embracing the smallest and perhaps the most banal of moments in life, searching within each of them for beauty, this life experience becomes sweeter and more inwardly rewarding. when we see that there is goodness and pure splendor in so very much more than we would have allowed ourselves to see before then we are growing closer and closer to attaining that personal, earthly nirvana that we are all seeking: happiness. i have come to realize more and more that i need to discover and appreciate anew the unadorned lovelies that surround me, find the brilliance lying in the commonplace, the trite, the ordinary; the things that we perhaps do not even give an afterthought to. for i feel that this is where i will constantly be able to find joy.

"one wanted, she thought, dipping her brush deliberately, to be on a level with ordinary experience, to feel simply that’s a chair, that’s a table, and yet at the same time, it’s a miracle, it’s an ecstasy." (virginia woolf, "to the lighthouse")

hymn #92 comes to mind...

Monday, October 20, 2008

monday, monday

Halfway through the semester! I cannot believe how fast the time has flown so far, but I am not too nostalgic about it quite yet. I am just counting down the days (87!) until I board a plane and fly to Paris for 4 months. What a dream!

I was so excited today to see Kari and Glen's blog. What a beautiful family you both have! It made me a bit lonesome to see you all so happy together - I only wish I could be at home with everyone, but I know that I am suppose to be slaving away here in the land of academia for right now. Good thing families are forever, right? - though it does feel as though it will be forever until I graduate...


So, updates on ma vie:

School is going splendidly (despite the occasional slaving away, as alluded to above). A class that I am especially enjoying this semester is this Honors 300R writing class. We are writing articles to be put into a new writing handbook for the Freshman 150 Honors writing class, so we get what authors dream of accomplishing: published! It's a great class - I spend hours upon hours brainstorming and writing and redrafting and then doing more redrafting, yet it leaves me wanting to write more. It's funny how the more involved and knowledgeable about something you become, the more that you realize how very incapable you truly are at it! I thought I was a decent writer before this class needing some help here and there, but I have been brought to the light of my ignorance (very unblissful, by the way); I have much to learn and a long way to go. But, this is something that I am willing to keep up the good fight for.

Anyway, this week should be interesting: a few tests here and there, a dabbling of papers to be written (one for French, Spanish, and English - !!), and I have to get that ORCA grant proposal in before Friday!!

Life is full. BYU is the best. I am happy.

(Pictures will soon be installed. Be patient with me, s'il vous plait.)